A shot is exactly what you need when you start all the meds. You need a shot to work up the nerve to shoot yourself up and another one for the sticker shock of buying the meds. The shots are something you just get used to. Once I got passed the anxiety, I was fine. They make you go to this tutoring session to learn how to administer the shots, but I didn't go into the medical field for a reason. Everything looks easy in front of a tutor...but ooooo when I got home I was lost! I tried to make a reference video for myself and that was a semi disaster. Eventually, your belly keeps getting more sore, more discolored, more swollen and yet it reminds you that you're one step closer.
You ever get to the register and the balance is so high you just want to walk away like they weren't talking to you? Yea, except for I had nowhere to go. Unfortunately we don't live in a state where IVF is covered. So, we spent $30,000ish so far.
When we miscarried the first time, we mourned a physical and financial lost. No one really admits to that. IVF was originally targeted toward white women who wanted their careers first...why you may ask? Well, they could afford to shell out thousands of dollars later on in life and have the best of both worlds....career and baby. I'm not mad at it, but the regular people have figured this shit out too! You'd be surprised at the stories I've heard and what people have sacrificed to just have the hope of having a baby. Mortgaged homes, depleted savings, etc. The reality is you can do all of those things and still have no success.
This isn't for the weak, but it is for the hopeful.
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